New Chapters

I know it is not as though I have ever been a daily blogger or have a bazillion followers like many of the blogs I read, but I have stayed deliberately silent for the past month.  It is not that I have nothing to say, as a matter of fact I have written dozens of posts in my head and have jotted down several ideas that I want to explore further, but more like a self-imposed moment or moments of silence.

Tomorrow I will be closing a chapter in my life that once upon a time I envisioned would last much longer.  When I first started my doctoral journey, I was constantly asked what I intended to do with my degree and, to be honest, even 4 years later when I completed the journey, I still had no real idea (remember all I really wanted was the fancy hat).  I mean I had this crazy idea that I would work as a professor in a university but that seemed like a far off pipe dream.  Or was it?

I won't get into all the details of how that crazy big dream became a reality in an incredibly short time and how it still absolutely blows my mind how everything just came together.  Despite rumors to the contrary, I was not fired or asked to resign in lieu of termination (have to love the rumor mill) and for anyone offended that they weren't let in on "secret", no one outside of my immediate family and 2 close friends even knew this was a possibility. 

Over the past several days, I have been asked if I'm sad to leave the place that I have called home for almost 7 years and, to be completely honest, the answer is no.  However, the answer is not no because I am angry or frustrated or anything else, it is simply no because it is time for the chapter to be closed.  I will miss the kiddos and my school family but know that many of the friendships will continue and even though many won't, that's ok.  I don't say that out of animosity but rather out of reality because I know how "out of sight, out of mind" works.The timing is not perfect being that I was under contract that required me to pay to be released from and it is the middle of the school year.

But, that is just the thing, maybe the timing was perfect ...